I miss my boyfriend

i know this is probably the stupidest thing to blog about but this is frikin ridiculous. you dont have to read it. i'm just blogging about my oh so miserable life again. i dont really care.
you know? it's true what they say. Money can't buy happiness. like i thought everything would be fixed once we get a little money because we are really struggling in this recession. So we got the money. but it brought be temporary happiness. I'm sad right now. not even happy. i miss my boyfriend. it's crazy. i dont wanna sound like a whining old spoiled teenager BUT

IT'S BEEN TWO FCKING MONTHS!!!!!! WHAT THE HELL!!!?? THIS IS RIDICULOUS!!

and i miss him so much it's sad :( i guess now i know what people go through. It's ridiculous though. I never planned on liking him so much...but whatever.
everything happens for a reason right?...........
well just wanted to blog about that. and you CAN miss someone so much it hurts.
it hurts sometimes. like in my chest :
Sometimes i wonder why i even do this....im hurting myself.