no one said you couldn't vent on blogger about the reason why you're unhappy
so here i go
i am angry because i'm living in the past
i am angry because i feel sorry for myself all the time
i am angry because i have to look at ME
i am angry because i don't look the way i'm SUPPOSED to look
i am angry because people tell me everything is going to be all right
i am angry because people treat us wrong because we're Africans
i am angry because out of the 100 pictures i take, i can only find one good enough
i am angry because i do not feel pretty
i am angry because i have to put eyeliner on to go to school so people will not focus on my FUCKING face
i am angry because i cry about things i cannot tell anyone
i am angry because i watch Cinderella and Snow White in order to feel something and be happy for someone
i am angry because i watch those shows to actually believe in something
i am angry because i am surrounded by people who are so pretty i'm like a maid compared to them
i am angry because i think about love every now and then and wonder stuff
i am angry because i hate feeling lonely
i am angry because i'm so fucking ugly
i am angry because i hate staring at ME
i am angry because i hate the way i've turned out
i am angry because i have to wake up and see the weight i've gained
i am angry because my tummy looks like an obese rat's stomach
i am angry because i cannot look anyone in the eye
i am angry because no one wants me
i am angry because i KNOW that i will never be able to attract a boy
i am angry because i hide my tummy in a sweater everyday
i am angry because i watch movies with happy endings and that never seems to be the case for me
i am angry because everyday i look at this quote from Juno and i cry
i am angry because i'm hiding myself
i am angry because i gave up on me
i am angry because i envy other people that i do not want to envy
i am angry because i live here
i am angry because i've lost each and every single one of my connections to God
i am angry because i live here and i haven't FOUND anything to live for yet--besides God
i am angry because i wanna be happy yet i can never achieve that
i am angry because i want to be other people besides myself
i am angry that i'm awake at night crying about MEEEE!
and i am so FUCKING angry that i'm so damn emotional
and im so FUCKING sorry if you read this and it disturbed you but honestly i don't give two fucks.
"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." Matthew 6:21.
2 comments:
i dont think ur ugly!!! im angry u hate urself wen u shouldnt...>:( and even tho u say ur lonely u should kno u have friends who'll b there no matter wat
-everyone lives in the past, one way or the other, that's why we have memories
-everyone feels sorry for themselves
-i have to look at myself too
-i didnt know people were SUPPOSED to look a certain way
-nothing will ever be completely alright
-everyone will treat someone who is different race or ethnicity with some type of disrespect
-i could take a thousand pictures, and i have never found one i like
-i'm not pretty but I frankly don't care (anymore)
-alost everyone who hasnt had plastic surgery does something to prevent everyone else from looking at their face, body, etc..
-no one has anybody they can tell ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING too, that's why we cry
-there is nothing wrong with watching movies to feel emotion and to be satisfied
-i didnt know there's something wrong with watching shows to believe
-if you were a maid, you would be wearing a maid's outfit and carrying around a broom and dustpan. but your not, so i dont even understand that part
-i think about love ALL THE TIME, when you think about it that much, then you can get angry about it
-i thought you liked being a loner, everyone goes through a "lonely stage" it's a part of life
-everyone is so fucking ugly, in my eyes anyway
-if you hate staring at yourself maybe you should stop staring?
-all your friends and me must love the way you turned out because we are still here
-shut up about your weight because im sure your no where close to 150 like me
-my stomach looks like tire, no two tires, so like i said before shut up about your weight
-you shouldnt look anyone in the eye unless you trust them
-no one wants you? seriously sarah?
-why are you focused on attracting guys for? when the right one comes, you'll know it, unless you want to put yourself out there like a hoe, so you can get a guy
-i like sweaters, but there you go about your weight again, so im not speaking on that one.
-happy endings NEVER HAPPEN! for anyone! even if it SEEMS like it, no one has a happy ending!
-Juno is a piece of shit, i hope they all choke on my cock
-if your angry about hiding yourself why dont you stop then?
-try agian on yourself, it really is that simple
-everyone envies someone, IT'S A PART OF LIFE God seriously Sarah
-i moved to the lithonia area, you think i want to be there? do you think i even want to be in georgia? or even on this country? not even Alycia wants to be here, she wants to be in Japan!
-God is still here, he didnt go anywhere, you have a bible dont you? then you have a connection
-we all shouldnt live for anything except for God anyway.. so???
-your not happy because your focused on being angry
-everyone wants to be someone else at least once in their life
-i cry about myself, whats wrong with that?
-its called being emo.... and i read it because I'm your best friend, and your my best friend. so i took my time out of class (im in third period right now writing this even though i have to wait until i go home to post this because my school blocked commenting on blogger) but seriously sarah, everyone has these exact same problems and probally even more. but i still dont understand why your so stuck on this being angry shit. im sorry that i was being a bitch when I was writing this comment, but it's just that too many girls are so fucking insecure about themselves and so fucking emotional about every little thing... i watch them and i see their whole life go down the tubes just because they think they're not good enough. I'm not going to let you do that to yourselves. Hell no everything isn't going to go all perfect and no one will always be all happy go lucky and shit. It just doesn't happen that way. This is just the stage of your life where your going through it. You shouldn't let your emotions get the best of ou. Your angry all the time because you allow yourself too. No one should influence on what you do with your life or how you feel. I think that's all I have to say. I probally have much more to say but I'm tired of fucking ranting to other people about this shit. You kow what I'm not done. You remember in 8th and even some of 9th grade I was always so depressed? You always gave me advice on how to be happy and not let other people get in my way. So why don't you take your own damn advice. I love you Sarah, and so do Kim and Alycia, I'm sure Michelle does too. That should be enough to get you through anything. I'm here for you even if you don't think so.
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