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today was the AP exams. i'm hating myself so much. the questions were easy as fuck yet i managed to fuck up. looking back at it i didn't even organize my thoughts. i feel so stupid. and i feel like killing myself or something. you don't understand. i spent a LOT of time studying for that and now it comes down to nothing. it hurts so bad. maybe no one can understand but me.

well i know i don't blog a lot but today i'm hurting so i'm writing. i even cried walking home. i hate myself so much.

and then i stayed after school to do my Spanish exam. and guess what? i fucked up on that too. i was just so nervous and i didn't know what to do.

and you know that dude i like? well i saw him with some girl today. doesn't that just make your heart fill with joy? when you see someone you like with someone else?

well then you know how i feel. i think today wa the worst day of the whole semester. and i have a lot of work to do too. i feel like jumping off a cliff. i need something.