Shawty i BE Bl0GGiN!

lmao ignore the title.
this is my 3rd blog. i think. hold up let me check again.

yes it is in fact my third blog. man i so don't do much on this site.
well today was a good day so i thought I'd write a little before going to sleep.
Yesterday we had no school because of the snow. it was awesome and i want to upload the video i made in the snow but then i gotta edit it, upload it on youtube, wait for the crap to process then copy AND then PASTE it on here. too much work l0l.
anyways so today i made a new friend. she's really nice. no i take that back. that girl is sarcastic as i don't know what but she's funny. i talked to her before but today i realized i have a LOT in common with her. (even though she's the spawn of the devil l0l) and it was nice talking to her.

AND OMG I ALMOST DIED TODAY!! MY AP TEACHER WASN'T THERE!!! AND I MISSED HIM SO MUCH LMAO!

but other than that I'm ok. i saw a quote on photobucket i think? and it said, "you have to be happy, if you are then everything else will fall into place."
and I'm just now realizing it's kind of true. Because if i decide I'm going to have a good day, i most of the time do. but if i don't. It ends up being a depressing day, so I'd like to share that.

This is such a boring blog. i have nothing else to say. ughhh and i thought I'd write a lot. OK now let me think......oh yeah now i know EXACTLY what I'm going to write about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i don't think I'll be hanging out with Dex much longer...or anymore. Because they're like corrupting me. It's true what they say about bad character corrupting the good one. i thought for once it would go the other way around but it DIDN'T!!
i found myself cursing this weekend. and i Don't even curse. i found myself saying all sort of stuff too. like wtf? doesn't make any sense. and then i realized that i get most of it from him.
NO see i like me the way i was in 9th grade (partially). i like NOT cursing and being good and all that other crap. Now i feel this power within me like i can shut anybody down or belittle anyone and i can do whatever the freak i want.
and i mean i can but i feel this thing, and it's bad because i was daydreaming about fighting someone today. i know i know, I'm weird. and i don't want to say this in fear of offending someone but i feel like a PAGAN! i mean i am but you know i always felt this innocence to me.
now i feel like I'm losing ALL of it.
matter of fact ignore everything i typed. that's what I'm trying to say.
"I Feel Like I'm Losing My Innocence."
that's basically what I'm trying to say. and no, not in the "sex" way. But just in general. I'm loosing the sweet nice girl and becoming a monster drawn by other people.
So from now on I'll try my hardest to not hang out with people that influence me the wrong way because i DO NOT want to become something I've always avoided.
you know what i mean?
well that's pretty much my blog.

and oh I'll be praying for my AP teacher in surgery. can you believe he has Hernia? I thought i was gross but I'll live =]]