Blaze is FORCING me to BLOG!

ok so here i go blogging about my nonsense life and my destroyed mentality. I'm going to use many metaphors or simile or whatever in this post.(ok so i realized i didn't use a lot throughout the rest of the blog) why? because i feel like it and i realize i truly have a deep hate in my heart. it comes out little by little. i realized it i think the day before yesterday. so i decided to change. I'll just fade into the background and not talk and just be the quiet little good girl i always was.

so i have a new obsession besides Asian boys. haha . as a matter of fact i don't like Asian boys all that much anymore. and i got over a LOT of people i used to like. including the old dude haha =D and all the other people i told you guys about.

i don't really have anything to talk about besides the fact that i hate my parents and i want to go to Oxford university so i can be thousands of kilometers away from them when i graduate.

so i changed my diet. yeah i'm trying to go with three HEALTHY meals a day and 2 snacks in between. healthy snacks. as soon as i get that down i'm going to start the exercising. and i heard of this park not too far away from where i live so i'm going to be running there from now on. man i need to blog about something interesting.

well here is the dude i've fell madly in love with l0l














and HIS BUTT!!!



ok now that that's over with I'll tell you about this book i read recently. it's about guys and girls. well their relationship basically. and it was just there. laid out for me like a dead body's debris haha. so i'm learning a lot about that. basically guys are dogs who like the way a girl looks. they like to "do" stuff with nice looking girls. they are so different than us in soooooo many ways. and in the book these girls are just so desperate to keep their boyfriends that they let the boys beat them around. it's horrible and stupid. at the same time there are those girls who are independent and know what they want.
there are also many kind of boys: the bad boys, the good ones, the players, the pretty boys and so on. and basically when i read it it made em realize how LONELY i was l0l. no seriously though. like all these girls have soooooooo many boyfriends and i'm here getting older and i could count all of my boyfriends with one hand. i hope this doesn't make me sound sound sorry for myself because i'm not but it made me just realize how pitiful my life is. if that last statement didn't make sense ot anyone then just pretend like you didn't read it at all. and well what i'm basically worried about is catching the wrong boy....or falling for the wrong one. IF i get any at all.
and that's by blog because i don't really know how to word the rest of my thoughts and i'm getting frustrated so bye.