I apologize [I'm so sorry Blaze =(]

i haven't blogged in a while. actually that's not what i'm apologizing for. i feel so horrible right now it's not even funny. i kinda hate myself for being such a b*tch. it's not even cool. so well, here's basically why i'm writing.

One of my closest friends was moving away and instead of trying to get back in touch with her, i focused on my own life. how selfish is that?
Yeah i'm talking about Blaze. She's probably mad at me. I don't blame her. I want to apologize but i feel like crap. I don't even deserve to talk to her. i feel awful. i was on facebook the other day and i saw her status. It said that she was leaving this weekend. I wanted to comment but then, it was like wtf Sarah? you haven't talked to her in how long and now you wanna butt in?
i feel bad. like i want to call but i don't even know if you have your number anymore. and i was scared you would hang up on me because the last time we talked it was awkward. I'm a horrible friend. Blaze has been there for my for so long and i feel like total shit. it's awful. i cried the other night when i realized how much i would miss her. it's not even funny. it's horrible. now i'm thinking about my idiocy.....if that's a word.

But you know what? I'm writing this blog to apologize for being so selfish =(
I'm sorry. and i hope we can keep in touch even though you're in Valdosta. and I'm so sorry again.
I only wish you the best life up there. I love you.

I'm gonna buy a gun and start a war If you can tell me something worth fighting for

the title is a line from one of Coldplay's songs. "A Rush Of Blood To The Head".
i am seriously in love with that band....and i wanna marry Chris Martin. if you dont listen to Coldplay then wipe yourself from the surface of the earth lol. I'm just kidding. no Coldplay is awesome though. i don't know what my life would like without them =)

umm i haven't blogged in a while so i kind of have a few things to blog about.
First and foremost My birthday is Tuesday!! ahhhhhhh I'm getting old. I'm going to be 17. i feel like i might as well be 30 lol. This birthday does not feel the same as the other ones. i really don't want to become old. i want to stop growing after 17. i mean after this, i turn 18 and my life is over lol. ok well not really but i feel old.

ummm on a good note I'm going to homecoming!! and i have a DATE!!! whoooo!! SCORE!! lmao. well actually i asked him which is something i've never done before but i loved doing it. life is about taking chances and i've been hiding in a corner. I need to take more chances.

Well his name is Was---. Yes guys, it is who you think it is haha. the dude at the game. i don't want to get into details but yeah i asked him and he was like it would be awesome and that's how that happened.
did i mention i kinda like him too? lol. well I've been talking to him. he's a pretty cool and funny dude. but i think i need to stop staying up late talking to him. i don't think that's too healthy for me. last night i stayed up till 6:30 talking to him. i didn't really sleep the way i wanted to haha.


well i went and got my homecoming dress yesterday. i KINDA like it. really. not my favorite thing but oh well. i'll make it work.

oh and this is our 4 day weekend!!! which is almost over. it's been going by too fast.

i also wanted to blog about the fact that our new laptop SUCKS BUT!!! mann it does. they couldn't fix the old one, so they gave us a new one. and this one just keeps freezing. i hate it. i want the old one back. eff this one.
My relationship with geek squad is officially over =/

anyways i think that's it for this blog. i have nothing much to say. just what's on my head. Now if you'll excuse me, i have to go do a literature project.

VIVA LA CHRIS MARTIN!!!!