my boobs hurt when my period is coming

gosh i HATE it. it hurts soo bad. runnning was total hell for me. ok i know no one wants to hear these things but i thought it was the only way to start my blog. which by the way, i have a LOT to blog about. well not really but i'd like to keep it simple.

all right first thing, my boobs hurt and i'm loosing weight. YAY? but i just want my period to come so we can get it over it.

two. I HATE MTV. ok well i really used to like them. until i saw the awards. i was like wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwttttttttttttttttttttffffffffffffffffff?? a total disappointment. but hey at least it's not the oscars right? cuz then Dark Knight or Slumdog Millionarire should've won for best movie. i'm sorry, Twilight SUCKED. i didn't think some people could act in it. i mean at a certain point this "certain" person's acting just got to me. well that's it but in my heart, i know who deserved that award.

three. i went to the park last Sunday and it was soooooooo segregated. gosh. the black and whites where in the pool and in the park. and the Hispanics were wayyyyyyyy on the other side playing soccer. i was so mad. cuz you know how i like Hispanic men. lol. but still. sad sight.

Four.my brother and i were sitting there by the ducks. ok my brother has down syndrome so he tends to talk to people he doesn't know and it's not his fault.so there's this lady and she's feeding the ducks. her children are too. and she's one of those BLACK women that i hate. i mean, the ----- is telling the ducks she'll beat them up if they touch her children. THEN GET YOUR CHILDREN AWAY FROM THEM THEN!!! ok so my brother starts talking to one of her MANY children and the little boy tells my brother to shut up. i was so mad, i gave him a MEAN glare. and the STUPID mother did not do anything about it. i swear, this is why i HATE black people. i don't even claim this race. UGH!!! and i left with my brother because i KNEW that if i said something to her son, she'd defend him and start a scene. why?
BECAUSE SHE"S A ------- BLACK WOMAN! ughhh. i have a deep hate for black people. no one understands. not my black friends though. they're cool.

five. this is sooo weird but i've been depressed. i seriously have been depressed. it's not even funny. the week after we got our break, i just became depressed. i would lock myself in my room and just cry. i think the Michael Jackson thing set it off. then i just started wondering about life. like what am i living for and stuff. and it just got bad. i would mope around the house and activities that once seemed fun to me became boring. (i.e George Lopez lol) but really. i did not know what was happening. i thought i was severely depressed and i would go into a home. but idk that night when i was crying and breaking down and just being at my lowest, i talked to my parents about it and it just went better. idk. but everything went better. i guess parents CAN make you feel better. and i'm glad my best friend Esther was there for me too =]

ok that's my blog. i didn't go into depth about the whole depression thing because i really don't wanna talk about it much. but there goes my blog.

Like Emma would say:
see you latorrrrrr